Monday, April 18, 2011

Streaks in Skies & Sad Goodbyes


            It’s funny how blogs are left dormant in two situations – either nothing is going on in your life or too much  is going on. The latter is true in my case. What have I been preoccupied with for the past month or so? We-e-l-l, packing the last ten years of my life into two suitcases with a weight limit of 50 lbs each, for one thing. Your friendly neighborhood neurotic has left the city she has called home for over ten years to go live on the opposite hemisphere of the earth. If on a globe you stuck a (long) needle through Cebu  and pushed it all the way through to the other side, you’d be in the general longitude of where I am now. What am I doing here, you ask? I ask myself the same question.

            I’m at the cusp of a new period in my life and it’s terrifying. Change always terrifies me. And this is pretty big. I feel like this is the point where I should finally forgive myself for all the stupid mistakes I've made  in the past (by commission or ommission) and start anew. But there’s that nagging thought in the back of my head that tells me I can’t just wipe the slate clean. There are consequences and repercussions of past mistakes that affect me to this day. Consequences. Despite my age, I feel like I still need to fully understand the meaning of that word. There are a number of things I wish I could have done differently in the past. I was so immature, I didn’t think about the future and the simple idea that what you do (or don’t do) today will affect you tomorrow. But, you know… spilt milk. Now I can only hope to prove that the past doesn’t have to define my future. 

15 comments:

  1. I wish you well. Wherever you are, I do hope you won't feel as though you've been a cat running away from her own tail all the while :)

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  2. Change is good. This move is the closest thing gonna get to a clean slate. But I don't think anyone really needs a clean slate because it would mean erasing everything, even the good stuff.

    Good luck on your move. =)

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  3. I saw the mature responses, and was about to post one of my own, but:
    WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH.

    Sorry. :'(

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  4. And Cebu has lost another one of her precious children...

    Say hi to Jacksonville, Florida for me.

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  5. Man, I knew I commented here and wished you well, S.P.! My ISP has been playing tricks on me. Anyways, I hope you find what you're looking for there. I wish you all the best. :)

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  6. it's a month too late but i wish you all the best. have fun :D

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  7. Hey lady...miss u. Lemme give u a hug..>:D<

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  8. @Dante You're such a drama queen. Get outta here. =)

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  9. @ the other S.P.: Thank you! I'm always getting you confused with Splice, I think it's the "SP" that's making me cross-eyed. Hehe. Mew at any cats lately? Haha

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  10. @ The Incursionist: Why you little sneak! You just totally blew my secret location. Damn you, FEEDJIT! Hehe. Thanks for dropping by. =)

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  11. @ Mahala, My Love, My Finder of Lost Words and Queen of Esoterica: I miss you most. =)

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  12. @ Nishiboy: Yes, let's keep all the good and get rid of all those past demons. Thank you for the well wishes. =))

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  13. @ Splice: Thank you for the well wishes. No, no more accursed tail-chasing. This cat's only looking forward. =)

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  14. hi mam, it's you pala...lol! been wondering who you were for so long!

    when you said "Despite your age" you made it sound like you're older...hehe

    Change is inevitable and you have the chance to start fresh and move forward. :D

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